Deep breath. O.k., so I have been gone for over a month now. I have to say that the events of this past month have been life changing to say the least. The first major event, moving, all the while juggling various personal issues within my family. The second, the arrival of my 30th birthday. A more internally tumultuous day I'm not sure when I'll again see! Pure craziness, in every direction.

Think tears, promises to self, navigating through boxes yet to be unpacked, a smoky bar with sweaty bodies on the dancefloor, Bad (as in not good) Tequila Sunrises, and a really cute hairstyle. And of course all the while...I had good friends and people who love me all around. For some reason though, I couldn't shake a feeling of loneliness and a kind of weird memorial to my 20's.

Towards the end of the day, I realized the milestone I had just celebrated and eagerly awaited a new chapter in my life. It took a while to shake off the wistfulness and embrace my new, "more grown and sexy" status, but now I'm starting to settle in nicely. Already, realizing some things that seemed mysteriously hidden in my 20's. Like Tyler Perry's "Madea" says: "....come age 30 and above, a lightbulb comes on. If not, something's wrong, check your bulb!" Now I can shake my head and truly understand what she meant.

Currently Listening Back to Black By Amy Winehouse rehab see related

Quick Update:

Preparing to move in the next 3 weeks...that should be fun! *rolling eyes*

My next entry is going to be written in a new, fresh atmosphere and (hopefully) written from a new, fresh perspective.

Lata, Gata's!

And Still I rise....

The beat goes on for me, as always. Now that I've started to clear the hurdle of my current relationship issues, I am facing a new dilemma. Our family is in the proccess of moving and we've hit a roadblock with my soon to be ex Landlord. She is a VERY anal person who is making the transition as difficult as possible, for reasons unbeknowst to me. I think she just gets a sick pleasure from being sadistic. *sigh*.

Weeeeelllll, dealing with difficulties in life has NEVER stopped me before. In fact, it's made me press ahead even harder and stronger, so I'm confident this time will be no different. One thing I'm noticing though, is that my patience with foolishness is growing shorter by the moment. Not sure at this time if this is a good thing, (my accepting less foolishness in my immediate surroundings) or a bad thing (my patience threatening to give out because of the strain). Time will tell, I guess, that is for SURE!